Sunday, September 23, 2007_'6:28 PM
hi bloggie
this will be my last post here before i embark on my EOY...
Jiayou to all!;)
Friday, September 21, 2007_'6:33 PM
hey bloggie
omg i noe its dead cos of exam preps. yea so wun be blogging till exams are OVER! haha omgomg i got milubing autograph! haha it rawks totally! thier word very encouraging de wor! haha and todae help miss harwin bring books to 3E2...T.T
i was like so nervous lahhhhhh...upper sec class...haha so funny. anyw, gonna keep my post sweet and short. going le..cya:D
lol thanks to [someone] for helping me get the autography ya:D haha lurbb it verii much<3
Saturday, September 15, 2007_'2:40 PM
hihi bloggie
ytd i went to watch ratatouie (i dun noe how to spell...but its ratatou sth sth) its like SUPER CUTE OMG! haha its about the rat want to become a cook. but he go kitchen all the human chef want to kill the rat. then blah blah blah want to know the whole thing come and ask me cos i type can type till next morning...lol.
had DnT! yeah i was like looking forward to it the whole time because DnT is damn fun...haha i wun say because of the teacher lah but she is like damn young and somehow or rather i was like feeling so awkward? haha young mah...DnT teacher all lao lao de...haha then i went to buff my artefact and when i went to apply chalk, all the dust flew into my eyes...pfft! because i forgot to wear safety goggles...(oops. thank god miss tan nvr see if not sure minus mark...xD) then i go take from the machine that can punch the hole de and wear...woo was damn cool looking...haha
then i go take pic..(RAH i dunno why but very curious mah..) lol.
Haha then after DnT i was like having a mild asthma? it was super dusty...thank god we are dealing with acrylic and not wood...haha
yay xiaogugu is back from england and tonight gg to eat dinner with her at the tanglin club...haha not excited or not dreading. just average...haha and tomorrow is ushering! yay i lurbb salted fishers they are my happy pill! haha going to wear my jeans+sf shirt+track shoes. should be alright:D
yesterday i chiongg my chemistry like ciao...now trying to memorise periodic table...its better off than studying physics...bleahs..physics suck. haha. chem rocks! RAH its like so hard to memorise the periodic table. cos alot of elements. lol.
then ytd after maths was pe. so was walking down with miss lim and i did a peace sign to her... haha because i wanted to see her reaction. and it was :"act cute arh"? i was like -.- and just laugh lor. haha so fun to make her. cos her reaction very funny. especially after school if u are staying back for remedial. LOL i am like starting to look forward to maths lesson these days? ARGH wds becoming of me man...why do i hear laughter in the background...
this monday is chinese test while wednesday is maths test. bleahs. shant talk too much abt that. haha. hate tests. and 2 more weeks till exam:((((((((
gotta go and chiongg all my work le. haha byes:D
Thursday, September 13, 2007_'3:38 PM
hey bloggie...
i am not feeling well...getting sicker and sicker day by day...am i too stressed thats why my asthma started? hmmm...i dun know...but like its getting worser and worser...i almost fainted in the bus today..haha but thank god i did not...I have this feeling that i keep falling but the fact is that I AM NOT FALLING!! my goodness it keeps bugging me and again i almost fell down in the toilet while bathing just now...T.T
Today i was reading reader's digest and came across this article about the symptoms of brain tumor...1)Suddenly feel that you are falling down but u are not, 2) having severe headaches and 3) feel ur veins pulling tightly ard ur head...
I dropped the book...i was so shocked...but i dun have la...maybe its coincidental that i just so happened to have these few symptoms but it could be other causes? I REALLY DUN NOE AND ITS FREAKING THE DAYLIGHTS OUT OF ME!
well, as i said, cant possibly be, cant possibly be...maybe i am just to paranoid...well, i will just leave this to god to handle for me...But i cant recover from my asthma...pfft... i am just so tired of all these...maybe i need the happy pill-salted fishers! lol...so sick, so hurt and so tired...
cya:)
Monday, September 10, 2007_'4:48 PM
hi bloggie...
hmmm todae i got back my mathematics test results and i got 20/20! yayness...But for my art...heh heh heh...i got 14/30...look on the bright side man at least i pass my target! (my target set for the paper was 3/30>_>)...
I am like so sick? haha shant elaborate on that. But keep me in prayers k? hee thanks!
i gotta go mug le...3 more weeks till exam! RAHness but no choice...i rather suffer now and then enjoy later! hee^^
byes:)
Sunday, September 9, 2007_'7:04 PM
when i was exploring radioblogclub, i went to search for this song...one way...it rocks la omg its damn nice...look at the lyrics..look at how meaningful it is...it just so great...
"you are the way the truth and the life...we live by faith and not by sight for you, we're living all for you"...
I lay my life down at Your feet
Cause You're the only one I need
I turn to You and You are always there
In troubled times it's You I seek
I put You first that's all I need
I humble all I am all to You
One way Jesus You're the only one that I could live for
One Way JesusYou're the only one that I could live for
You are always, always there
Every how and everywhereY
our grace abounds so deeply within me
You will never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end
You are the Way the Truth and the Life
We live by faith and not by sight for You
We're living all for You
_'6:07 PM
hi bloggie
todae was a fantastic day in church...haha my asthma is slowly getting better already. I had my last sunday school lesson today and i taught them bible studies! haha was so fun! Although i was a lil nervous and not really confident, i still managed to do it! haha was chao fun...
After church, was cg! haha certain [conversations] sparked off between eunice, kim and i...[
hmm...just finished revising and i am now blogging! haha next week is cell group duty...again? haha yea i noe lah its like one month only then got duty again...haha i am doing my usual... USHERING! yayness! haha
so tired...wish i could SLEEP! Hahaha...byes:)))
Saturday, September 8, 2007_'3:06 PM
hi bloggie...
i am having an asthma attack...my breathing can like suddenly stop and my heart can be so shallow at times i cant feel it pumping at all...at times so fast that i can feel my chair shaking when i sit on it...i am like very weak...getting spasms all the time and my legs are like very cold...perhaps its because my heart is not pumping fast enough...but i am not sure of the reason why...
on wednesday, i was so heartbroken that i had a severe breakdown and i went to slit myself again...but what can i do? i was just so sad and i had no one to talk to...so in the end, i went to slash myself...on the wrist...but then again, ppl came to me and told me to stop...but...just cant control sometimes...
what should i do?
Friday, September 7, 2007_'11:41 PM
hihi yea i know wednesday was a day where things did not turn out well, but i am trying to "regain consiousness"...haha..but still ou er will be sad lah
well, yesterday i had a mood swing again...but wasnt as bad as the one i had on wednesday night...so yups, and i got my converse sneakers! YIPPS! haha (short for yippee^^) and its like so nice? haha gonna wear that to church this sunday with my cargo long pants and tee shirt...woo! i am like haha excited mans!
todae went to Toa payoh with inez and dtjw...was chao fun and fun-ny!? haha i and dtjw were early and chatted and chatted...until we got i-nez's sms saying she was in CCK...i was like diao? still so far? haha but was alright...then she came and we went to eat mang guo bing! haha was like super duper yummy! haha we first ordered mang guo...then was cao mei (strawberry)! haha was like chao tian and this was the result after we like finished everything? haha
see how good it was? hee^^ and like i bet we were all gonna be pang pang le! awwww
so after mang guo/cao mei bing we went to take the MRT...yay! (i noe it sounds retarded...haha) and while at the station waiting for the train to arrive, we were like talking and talking non-stop...haha and before the train came, inez told daryl to quickly take a pic...but the doors were like already opening and **snaps** haha was so funny...altho we were rushing, the picture turned out nice!
this was the pic which i call it...The picture of hurry...
haha was chao hao wan today...looking forward to more outings! hee^^ i am so happy to know inez and many other people from church... because like since i got to know them, they have helped me really much in a great way too...they have motivated me to be strong and not be so emotional....
I thank god for todae...was an awesone day... never felt so carefree...so zi you, so happy and just went out...hmm, if only...my life could be like that everyday...then i would say my life is good:)
gonna go and sleep soon le...haha byes:)
Thursday, September 6, 2007_'12:19 AM
i know its like 12.13 am and i am supposed to be asleep now? i am now awake blogging after having an emotional breakdown... i tried to 自殺 again but i failed...I ended up crying so hard and slashed myself on the arm... Why did i do it? You guys might be wondering...
Because i was so hurt... cannot take the pressure given by friends, family and stuff...but i am trying my best to control myself...hmmm but i thank elaine for her prayers...
gonna zzz le..nightes
Wednesday, September 5, 2007_'8:13 PM
yesterday while talking to elaine, she told me to look at her nick...and it was:"and everyday, i'll keep on walking for one more day"...very meaningful...i just cant help memorising and pondering over this sentence...really a great sense of encouragement...will remember this sentence...thanks lots laine=) lurbbs<3
不知不覺地...我好想變成有點自戀了...哈哈...只是個突然的...我也不知道為甚麼..是不是好的呢?還是壞的? 但是confirm不是個同性戀啦...
我每次不開心的時候呢...我會想起我最好的朋友...因為他們有時候會在我身邊,幫我加油打氣...好想幾個某某人...好想跟你們說起時你很好...但是否你們自己知道呢? 我很想跟你們說...如果沒有你們, 就想天空缺了白雲...若有一天你們離開我, 我當然會很傷心, 彷彿我所有的東西都消失了...我的天空會變成灰...心是個落葉的季節...不知道如何度過今夜...然後所有的燈早已經全都熄滅了...
我現在心情不好...我缺了朋友和家人的愛...已經忘記愛的兹味是怎樣了...現在很想哭...想用一把刀割傷我自己...很想哭得很重...現在沒有心情做甚麼了...只想殺...殺...殺...
Tuesday, September 4, 2007_'8:17 PM
I am just so damn pissed... just finished fighting with my mother...dang it she is like getting suspicious of me in a bgr...and what made her think that way was just because i and [censored] made plans to send steph a crad together at the same time she think i am in lurf with [censored] and that i should concentrate on my studies...omg i really flare up at that time and was like I AM NOT IN BGR OK...STOP PISSING ME OFF WITH YOUR SUSPISIONS...i am on the verge of crying now... i shall not let wad happen affect my friendship with [censored]...
then came the reply...cant go to ubin with valarie and the rest but ya lah, she had to come and tell me:"i dun feel comfortable, u gg with adults and blah blah blah i think if i were to type what she said u guys cant read...i even doubt so blogger would have the capacity to hold so much words so i rather not say anything at all...=x...Dun blame me if i have a mood swing this thursday... cos if i am at home all alone i will be lonely and loneliness=mood swing...since she rather i have mood swing than to go out cycling ok lo...since if that is what she wants i give it to her...
I am like crying by myself now? all alone...but thank god i can talk to Kimberly and she is kinda like cheering me up...so yups, i cannot be bothered with my mum le...haiz i am kinda happy things between kimberly and i are settled...
stephanie smsed me that she got the card that i sent her...haha eunice and my plan succeeded! hehe thank god...erm like i really is lost le...i dunno wad to do now...hmpf...sitting by the corner crying...all alone...
Sunday, September 2, 2007_'8:19 PM
hihi there... todae a whirl of events happened! haha was like super cool! ok shall do bit by bit ya:)
During Church
was about to go for sunday school...then sudenly i wasn't allowed to leave...must stay for message...so i was like...omg lah i want to go...haha so nevermind...go back and listen to message... was about choosing your life partner... was quite funny and i shall not elaborate on that because if i did, this post will take u like forever to read...
After Church
became emo for awhile because like aiya hard to explain la...then valarie asked me whether wanna go to ubin this thursday...omg lah! i am like of course...sure de...haha so maybe i go this thurs...then inez ask told me that they planning to have a ym musical...haha and i said that i want and she was like settled! haha if it is really true, i sure go and perform de...hee^^ and then suddenly, jamantha came up to me with a present and said, happy teacher's day...omg i was like so touched and happy to have a gift frm them...heehee^^ and inside this jar, was like notes written by the students wrapped up in straws...so cute! with stars and sweets too...haha i was just so happy to have a teacher's day gift from them...(and its my first teacher day gift)...so yups... that was wad happened..haha
On the way to Steph's house
ok here was where the real entertainment starts... Jia Hui wanted to sms [mou mou ren] sth... then she was like wanting to bluff the person that i have a crush on a boy..T.T( i am not gay)...so i tell her to anyhow say that i have a crush on someone else instead...and when she was typing, she said: "Ian has a crush on a gurl..." and next work came out was "Jia Hui"...it was like automatic la...haha then Eunice and I burst out into a laughing fit... haha and she was like damn malu...haha and then we like couldn't stop laughing at chua's silliness...haha
At Steph's House
we were all playing a cool game invente by dennis (yea he and ming hui came along for cg today)... haha it was sth like u pass an object and blah blah blah shant elaborate and it was super wild... haha and then we had singing...then after that was sharing...sharing was conducted by zoo keepe and the topic was on how to handle our friendship...so yea learnt alot todae...and after that we watched Evan Almighty...was so funny mans...shant go into detail...then after the movie chua started being zi lian again...go take her own hiao pic...haha then we go laugh and she like got distracted...haha was so funny...
On the way home
i went home with Eunice, Geraldine and Jia Hui... took 86 back to church and then geraldine and Jia Hui left...now zhi sheng xia eunice and i...took 851 and she was like so funny lah...go and sneak into the bus... then i ask her wad happen if they ask wad sch u come frm and she told me Ahmad Ibrahim Sec Sch... woah piang i burst out into laughter...was so funny...then i gave her my $1 in case she need to get off the bus because of bus captain...but in the end she was safe...haha thank god...and then i went to pop to buy some stationaries and then on the way home in AMK hub i walked past a bread shop...hehee...was chao hao xiao
so yups, that was wad happen today... was like super funny...so yups, gonna make [belated] teacher's day card now...byes<333
Saturday, September 1, 2007_'10:55 PM
hihi...todae went to church cos got kopi-o-kosong! haha its like super nice lah...the dance too! was so cute...haha as i mentioned in sf blog, daryl and geraldine must teach me the dance! haha and the song was like chao ke ai! will find the lyrics...but the play was also quite funny and meaningful...learnt that money is not everthing in life and that there are more things in life that are important...and which i like agree totally?? haha my most important thing i need is my friends, family and god-bro... because they are the ones who are always there for me no matter wad and if they were to be taken away, i would be very depressed... so like if i dun have the money is ok...and i learnt that we can also turn to god in our times of need and that i think this play has helped me to see things in life at a better perspective and positively... so yups, this was the message that they were trying to bring across to us..altowhich was useful to me since i was undergoing through so much pain...
the setting of the play was like a coffeeshop...so darn cool! with toasted bread...woo! damn nice lah...althogh only ate one piece...=P but was a cool event! just loved todae...sian i am like super tired now? took a 3.5 hr nap...was chao shuang. haha gonna "recharge" now...bye:)