Tuesday, February 17, 2009_'8:23 PM
haiz, had a real real bad day today again D:
I don't know why school is so horrid for me now... it really has changed alot... In sec 1 and 2 i would come home smiling happily, play and stuff, and still able to cope with my studies etc...
Come to sec 3? Crying when I get home everyday... literally I break down almost every day now and I am getting really really really tired of it... Life is so meaningless now... I feel more like a programmed robot, having to do the same routine every single day, every single week... I am really really tired of it, I don't want to go school anymore!
E/A Maths haven't improved a bit at all... Raymond Ng is still picking on me, purposely pretend not to see my worksheet and claim that I din't pass up so that you can punish me... I wasn't born yesterday, I clearly saw you purposely pretending not to look at it and I knew that was mine because I recognised my handwriting... I beared with it and told myself not to be angry... tolerate it! Psalm 119:9- How can a young man live his way pure? By living according to your word...
I am trying to use this verse now to help me pull through this week... Its only tuesday and I have already broke down ): I can't take it anymore!! Sigh, and moreover guitar is 3 times a week, i don't have time to study when I get home and all my tests are flunking... I feel like dropping out of school already, focus and put my 1000% into SYF and get through that auditions, and come back to school to take sec 3 next year... Hmm, should I do that?
I am really really tired, when will this end? I can't take it and I don't want to come home crying anymore... I never cried so much in my life till I came sec 3 ;((